text: un: GRAVEMISTAKE

[hellshot]



1. I'm not dead yet. So if you've planned on burying me already, cancel your plans.

2. Your recent nanomachine problem isn't my problem, sucks to be you if you've been infected with them. If you wake up tomorrow morning feeling and looking a little more like a corpse, then maybe I'll consider taking a look.

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[bottombitch]

[ Funny enough, this isn't the most 'out there' thing he's heard here. At least this one he understands. ]

seriously?

so you're just a collection of nanomachines?
did they go haywire and you lost cohesion or something
are you okay??

[hellshot]

[...Colour him surprised, of all things, he didn't expect this guy to understand complicated machinery. Huh.]

That's exactly what happened. At least, that's as far as I can figure. Felt sick for a while, kept falling apart and splitting at the joints. Figured something was wrong, and then I woke up at the portal again.

The date they told me was far different from the date I remembered.

Far as I can tell, I'm fine now.

[bottombitch]

[ This kind of technology is out of his reach skill-wise but he knows about it. ]

fine now?
but you really don't know do you?

hey um i know we're not close but
i figure i couldn't ask someone who would worry a lot about me to go to the clinic
so maybe
if you're okay with it
we can go together

i mean it's worth getting yourself checked out right?

[hellshot]

[Hah. He can't help a sickly wide grin--because right on the nose; no, he doesn't know. But hey, you're the first one to call him out on it.]

No idea, kid. Know jack shit about the bullshit that's going on with what's left of this body.

Kind of strange to offer to go to a clinic with someone you don't know well.
Even weirder when you don't know what kind of person I am.

As for that last bit...

I ain't fond of doctors.
I hate them. To put it in a finer way.

And none of them can figure out what's wrong with me.

[bottombitch]

well you're friends with ichimatsu so you can't be all that bad

[ Aoba's too-trusting nature has landed him with rather dubious types like self-professed yakuza members Trip and Virus and domestic terrorist group leader Mink so... this is just the sort of idiocy you can expect from him. ]

ah ok
sorry
i think that sort of experience would really freak me out

[hellshot]

...
Still figuring that out.
'Friends'.

People like me don't make friends.


As for that last bit.

I'd be lying if I said it didn't freak me out.
Difference is--once you die more than once, the possibility of dying again stops being such a bad thing.
You start to get used to it.

[bottombitch]

oh...
how would you describe your relationship then?

also that sounds terrifying
dying more than once

...

what's it like

[hellshot]

Someone to talk to. No sense of obligation, no expectations to talk or act a certain way.
No judgement on who I am or what I've done.

Don't know. He's just someone who doesn't give a fuck and it makes it easy to be around him.

[It's a lot; after all, most people who try to get close to him tend to ask prying questions about what he is, his past, or things related. They find distaste in how he looks and acts, and are often immediately disgusted when they find out he's an ex-terrorist. It's all very understandable.]

...

What's it like.

You really want to know? Aoba?

[bottombitch]

i do and i don't
death is scary
i think it's normal to be afraid of something that might hurt
and then there's the whole idea of
where do you go when you die

...

maybe it's best if it remains a mystery

[hellshot]

That's the thing about death. It's not something anyone is truly capable of escaping.
It could happen to you in 40 years. 10 years. Tomorrow. It's not choosy. It's inevitable, and it's something everyone has to deal with. Be it your own, or the death of others.

In that way. Death isn't something that should be feared. But rather, accepted, and acknowledged.
Where you 'go'...

Well. It remains a mystery to both of us.
Because every time my body re-animates after dying...

It's like waking up after a very long sleep.

[bottombitch]

your body re-animates after dying
i'm not sure if that's a good or a bad thing

i guess all i can ask is
is that what you want?

[hellshot]

Most people would call it a bad thing, wouldn't they?
Experiencing death only to come back? Over and over.

If I wanted this, I think I'd have a far better attitude about it, kid.

Noone should live not knowing if they can ever truly die.
Noone should live knowing they could sleep and never wake up.

[bottombitch]

well
you could have initially
and then had a lot of regret?

or maybe a mistake, idk

...i'm sorry this happened to you