I didn't think I was going off on my own, honestly. And I've tried to keep Richard off of all of this. You're the only person who knows even half the story, and it was an edited version of it because of him. But...

[Alex let out a sigh.]

I tried to tell him I was going to do it and he accused me of doing it already and he has this stupid 'I hate you so much' voice and I... got angry.

I'm not doing this because I want attention or want my show back or anything. I gave all of that fucking up for him. I'm trying to find a weapon or something so that something doesn't happen to him, but he refuses to see it that way.