I know that you are right, but I cannot imagine acting without being judged. It is as foreign to me as imagining there is no sun, or air, or gravity. The feeling is as if... there has a thorn in my foot, since I was born, and I learned to walk in a way so as not to put pressure on that one spot. Only now the thorn is gone, and I know no other gait. I don't know if I can learn to walk differently. It may be too late.
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