Does talking about it mean you'd have to go back? [And he thought the Clave could be strict about their secrecy policies...]

You should be proud of who you are. [Alec rubs the back of his neck as he considers how he'd hated himself for years.] That's not always an easy mental place to reach. I don't think any being has a life without some downside.

What did you do before if you didn't have a place to live or wages?