[He's starting to have too many feelings about this so he's just gonna switch to private. He doesn't mind talking about it with John, but that doesn't mean he wants it all over the network.]

In my experience it tends to be like, you get a couple months of chill where you can relax, and then everything fucking hits you at once for the next few months.

[It's started to get a little tiring, as much as he tries to push past it all.]

I'll be real with you, this shit right now is fucking fine, I'll take being blind.

[The implication here is that it's better than other things he's had to deal with.]