Meg Murry (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
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riverview2018-05-27 10:00 pm
loveconquers) wrote in riverview2018-05-27 10:00 pm
voice | @ m.murry
[ Meg wanted to just send out a text, quick and to the point. But, she needed this to be a little personal because that's all it was. He was her family and she'd gone four long years without him. Having him back for a little under 2 months was more than she could have had.
It could be all she will have. She doesn't know.
And that's why she needs to do this. She might not have bothered otherwise... Back home, she wasn't responsible for the announcements or notifications to family and friends, but her mother wasn't here. She spent a long time wondering if she should even do this or let people find out on their own, but it was the right thing to do. His leaving impacted more than just her. When he hadn't come back, she'd figured he might've been caught up with whatever was going on, but then the other pieces fell into place. He'd been sent away. This time, she promises to herself, she won't lash out and destroy what she's kind of set herself up for here. It hurts. It hurts, but it's a familiar pain.
At least she knows what to do with it now and that she can fix it. No, now that she will fix it. Her voice is even when she finally addresses the network, wanting to keep this as brief as possible. It was easier to internalize it than to scream and cry. Though, she can't stop a few tears as she can hear his voice in her mind. Just like she can't help the way her voice cracks at his name.
Be strong for me, Meglet. It'll all work itself out. You'll see. ]
For anyone who might have known him, Dr. Alex Murry is gone. He did wall research and development. I--
[ She's not sure what else needs to be said. Apologizing feels wrong. She can only hope that he didn't go back to Camazotz. Or if he did, he isn't there alone for long. There's a pause filled with a shaky breath as she searches for how to end this before just turning it off. ]
It could be all she will have. She doesn't know.
And that's why she needs to do this. She might not have bothered otherwise... Back home, she wasn't responsible for the announcements or notifications to family and friends, but her mother wasn't here. She spent a long time wondering if she should even do this or let people find out on their own, but it was the right thing to do. His leaving impacted more than just her. When he hadn't come back, she'd figured he might've been caught up with whatever was going on, but then the other pieces fell into place. He'd been sent away. This time, she promises to herself, she won't lash out and destroy what she's kind of set herself up for here. It hurts. It hurts, but it's a familiar pain.
At least she knows what to do with it now and that she can fix it. No, now that she will fix it. Her voice is even when she finally addresses the network, wanting to keep this as brief as possible. It was easier to internalize it than to scream and cry. Though, she can't stop a few tears as she can hear his voice in her mind. Just like she can't help the way her voice cracks at his name.
Be strong for me, Meglet. It'll all work itself out. You'll see. ]
For anyone who might have known him, Dr. Alex Murry is gone. He did wall research and development. I--
[ She's not sure what else needs to be said. Apologizing feels wrong. She can only hope that he didn't go back to Camazotz. Or if he did, he isn't there alone for long. There's a pause filled with a shaky breath as she searches for how to end this before just turning it off. ]
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[ It’ll really sink in after a few days, the reminder of her seeming isolation. Being surrounded by people, but none of them her family. At least back home, when she’d have rough nights, she could always count on Charles Wallace being there to make hot chocolate and talk… Or not talk. ]
It’s okay. [ No, it’s not. But, she didn’t want apologies. No one apologizing could have stopped this from happening again. ] I’m just glad I got a little time with him.
Private | video
I think this might be better...and I don’t like voice calls too much, if that’s okay.
[ A beat as she tries to gather her thoughts on this. ]
If it doesn’t feel okay later...and you need someone to talk to, I can be there for you. My grandma was here before...and it hurt a lot to lose her.
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[ Meg hesitates for a moment before flipping her own feed to video, her hair pulled back and glasses in place. ]
That sucks a lot... I thought this place would be better than back home.
[ Because it had brought her back together with her father and she’d been happy. For the first time in what feels like forever, she’d been able to let her emotional guard down and start to reach out, make friends… Be a kid. She should’ve known it was too good to be true. ]
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[Another pause as she tries to figure out what else to say to make things better...]
Do you...want hot cocoa or anything?
[When in doubt, go for food.]