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[dothelokimotion]

What would you consider to be unforgivable?

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[dothelokimotion]

Have you?

[scholiast]

Touche.

I... like to think that I'm trying.

[dothelokimotion]

I'm simply a little tired of trying right now.

[scholiast]

Okay.

Should I stop talking to you about it?

[ private ]

[dothelokimotion]

[ it's pitiful. he knows that. ]

I told Thor the truth. Or part of it.

[private]

[scholiast]

(This actually explains a lot.)

I would ask how he took that, but I did chance upon him at the Carnivale in only his bathrobe

Re: [private]

[dothelokimotion]

That was because of Bryn's departure.

I told him it was my fault. Not my death but everything else.

[scholiast]

(Is Bryn gone again? Lucretia makes a mental note to check in with Taako about that later, putting it carefully aside.)

Oh.

And you're afraid that he won't forgive you?

[dothelokimotion]

No. I prefer not being forgiven.

I've ruined everything I set out to do. I wanted to be better. I tried. I really did.

I'll not ruin Thor as well.

[scholiast]

Why?

And no, I don't think that you will. Thor for one seems like a person who would not let himself be ruined; that, and you care too much about him to let that happen.

[dothelokimotion]

That doesn't stop it from happening.

[scholiast]

Then talk to him about it

Does he know you feel this way?

[dothelokimotion]

No. I've done enough to Thor.

[scholiast]

(Admittedly, most of Lucretia's understanding of sibling relationships is drawn from growing up with Lup and Taako, but...)

You're brothers. He won't begrudge you for wanting support.

[dothelokimotion]

I've burned it to the ground. I rather it stay that way than for me to keep lighting it on fire. Whether I meant to or not.

[scholiast]

Do... you know that for sure? Or are you just scared?

[dothelokimotion]

I know I've done enough.

Let my death be the end of it.

[scholiast]

He would be sad to hear you say that.

[dothelokimotion]

Yes.

[ But free. ]

[scholiast]

You can't be content with this outcome.

[dothelokimotion]

Normally, I wouldn't be. It's not in my nature to know satisfaction.

But I hear good people aspire to a complete ending.

[scholiast]

I think I'd be more understanding of that if you weren't talking about your eventual murder

(This... feels disturbing now.)

[dothelokimotion]

I tend to use a lot of gallows humour.

[scholiast]

Yes, I've noticed.

(She's upset, but isn't sure if that's a justified response, so:) Where will you go from here?

[dothelokimotion]

I'll stay here, most likely.