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[genice]

- new chew toy
- pick up reflective tags
- bed linens?
- rearrange class schedule for next week
- review beginning level choreo
- confirm dinner reservations
- surprise for Yuuri!!! do not forget
- Yuuri ♥

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@jb.barnes, text; private

[anotheroldsoldier]

[Yeah don't think Bucky hasn't seen that conversation between Viktor and Yuri. He barely knows the people from Yuri's world, having seen Otabek probably the most, but he does recall a training session with Yuri a little while ago that hadn't gone well.]

Whatever's going on with you and Yuri, don't make it worse. He hasn't punched his knuckles bloody in a while and I want to keep it that way.

[genice]

I'm glad Yuri has people who are looking out for him.

( and that's it. he means it, quite honestly means it. and because he has zero idea why Yuri has acted like this for going on into three months now, and he's just been giving that disturbing bit of imagery of Yuri's temper escalating and his coping getting worse since coming here, he has nothing else to say. Yuri doesn't want to hear Victor. Victor can't make it worse: he can't make it better. only Yuri, or those Yuri is listening to, can get him to pull his head out of his ass and figure out what's going on. )

[anotheroldsoldier]

[This might be on Yuri, it might not, Bucky doesn't have all the details. He just has the picture of the kid slumping against the gym wall with bloody hands, asking, What if I'm not good enough? Yuri might be the hostile one here, but Bucky is ride or die when it comes to his people.]

I don't know what you said to him a while ago, but whatever it was, it did some damage. Are you just going to brush him off?

[genice]

I don't know that telling him several times over that he's welcome where we are, with us, talking to us, for any reason, counts as damaging or brushing him off. I don't know what it is he's taking this badly, and he won't tell me. He won't tell Yuuri, either.

[anotheroldsoldier]

Don't play stupid. Back in April, he came into one of our sessions furious at everything because of shit you and Katsuki had said to him. You have to know what set him off.

[Bucky knows a little bit, but he wants to hear it from Viktor.]

[genice]

( the problem is Victor literally does not know what set Yuri off. therefore, he can't tell Bucky what he wants to know. )

I'd appreciate if you would stop making accusations.

What session, when? The last time he spoke with us happened to be when we had him and Otabek come over to celebrate his birthday. We may have teased him over his impatience with chopsticks, he likes to jab instead of hold them properly, but that doesn't seem like it's enough to warrant this.

[anotheroldsoldier]

Are you this oblivious to what's going on with him? Obviously it ain't about chopsticks. He's still upset about that night and you're not taking his feelings seriously.

[genice]

( LMAO AS WE'VE JUST FIGURED OUT OOCLY, no Victor has no idea because this was all an eavesdropped conversation Yuri listened in on, ah )

Still upset about what from that night? If you know what it is, why are you not stating so up front to help clear up whatever happened?

[anotheroldsoldier]

[Unfortunately, Bucky still doesn't have all the details - Yuri never mentioned he was eavesdropping. Bucky's made assumptions based on that morning with Yuri at the gym and Yuri's conversation with Viktor today. His kid is hurting and he's not a kind enough man to care about being fair to anyone else.]

Because you should be talking to him about it instead of brushing off his anger. It's not on the kid to reach out, it's on the adult.

[genice]

Okay, okay, I don't really understand why you think I haven't tried. Have you run into a lot of this in your own life when you were around the same age?

[anotheroldsoldier]

Don't deflect. I know you haven't tried. Who do you think is actually spending time with Yuri? Who do you think he sees on a regular basis, who do you think he talks to?

[genice]

( this feels so pointlessly dramatic I'm sorry, sobs Victor quirks his eyebrows at the response, wondering if this was all a grand way of James saying he's Yuri's better friend. An assessment Victor chooses to have no comment on, since it isn't his business, and he'd meant what he said about being glad Yuri had people who cared for him here that Yuri was also willing to talk to, since he sure refused to do so with Victor or Yuuri. Yet he also lacks patience or interest in deaf ears or obstinacy that doesn't serve a purpose he cares about, and so he shrugs, opting not to respond. Bucky fighting and arguing over what doesn't exist, over Victor not chasing after Yuri, is senseless in his eyes. He's held out an olive branch several times over. If Yuri wants to accept that offer, Victor's willing to meet him halfway. He's willing to apologise if he's done some wrong and it's brought to his attention. But he's not Yuri's father. He's barely Yuri's friend. The best he might pass as is an errant older brother, except they've never quite been family except on the ice. He cares for and about him, wants to see him succeed, finds it heartbreaking what Bucky enables, even as he can see why Yuri reached for it. All of these things are true.

Yet he's never been responsible for Yuri. He's never been Yuri's confidante. Bucky is asking why Victor isn't what Victor has never been. He keeps expecting an answer or ownership that Victor doesn't have, thus cannot give. He shrugs: he hopes that Yuri will reach back out to accept the hand extended. Just as he knows even if Yuri never does, Victor and Yuuri won't stop caring. But you have to choose to let someone in. You have to choose to speak. Yuri keeps choosing silence with Victor, and he is patient, for the moment Yuri decides to speak. But not demanding. Not forceful. It's just not how the two of them have ever related personally at all. )