[ there is the anger, a more familiar foothold than this, trying to reconnect with a Genji who doesn't know what he did. Hanzo brings his hands up to shove Genji's off his shoulders, taking a half-step back and steeling himself like he's expecting a fight. ]
You want to abandon the family? [ he makes a sharp noise, derisive: ] I should not be surprised; you already did. I died so that one of us would remain. [ his voice is losing its flat control as he gets louder. ] If I had known you would not take responsibility for the clan, I would have—!
[ he stops, throat constricting. would have — what, killed Genji? that was the only other option. and he won't lie, he had considered it; of course he had, when that's what was expected of him. he'd examined it from every angle and there were only two paths. and he'd decided that one of them, he could not take. didn't want to. if he hadn't had any other choice, he would have done it, but he did have a choice. him or Genji. and Genji had— ]
I trusted you! When I refused the elders' judgement, I believed that you would have the sense to take my place! And you ran away! Like you always do!
[ there are warnings that go off in his systems, not so urgent as Genji's cyborg body would have been; the damage isn't as extensive. but the notice is jarring to Hanzo, and he freezes suddenly. he backs off another step, breathing hard. it's not for his health that he heeds the alerts, anyway.
quietly, he says to himself, clearly a mantra he's used many times before: ] An omnic does not feel.
no subject
[ there is the anger, a more familiar foothold than this, trying to reconnect with a Genji who doesn't know what he did. Hanzo brings his hands up to shove Genji's off his shoulders, taking a half-step back and steeling himself like he's expecting a fight. ]
You want to abandon the family? [ he makes a sharp noise, derisive: ] I should not be surprised; you already did. I died so that one of us would remain. [ his voice is losing its flat control as he gets louder. ] If I had known you would not take responsibility for the clan, I would have—!
[ he stops, throat constricting. would have — what, killed Genji? that was the only other option. and he won't lie, he had considered it; of course he had, when that's what was expected of him. he'd examined it from every angle and there were only two paths. and he'd decided that one of them, he could not take. didn't want to. if he hadn't had any other choice, he would have done it, but he did have a choice. him or Genji. and Genji had— ]
I trusted you! When I refused the elders' judgement, I believed that you would have the sense to take my place! And you ran away! Like you always do!
[ there are warnings that go off in his systems, not so urgent as Genji's cyborg body would have been; the damage isn't as extensive. but the notice is jarring to Hanzo, and he freezes suddenly. he backs off another step, breathing hard. it's not for his health that he heeds the alerts, anyway.
quietly, he says to himself, clearly a mantra he's used many times before: ] An omnic does not feel.