[ text | un: anonymous ]

[supersweet]

If someone takes control of you, does that mean that there's something bad in you all along?

How do you get rid of it?

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[axefight]

[ no harm in hearing it again and again and again, right. ]

The something still "bad" in you?

[supersweet]

Yeah . . . I mean. I broke free but I was still kind of . . . out of control. I saw time. Like different timelines and realities.

The whole thing just makes my head hurt.

[axefight]

Ah. Yeah. Overwhelming, isn't it?

[ said like he's got experience with that sort of thing. ]

If it's too much to process all at once, don't. Take it piece by piece. It's fine to make mistakes, to struggle with it, you know. Expected.

[supersweet]

[ Jon rubs his face. ]

There's mistakes and there's . . . whatever happened. I dunno. It feels so big.

[axefight]

Trust me, I know big, bad worse-than-mistakes. Losing a bit of control in the heat of the moment, fighting for your body and mind - that's not one.

[supersweet]

Maybe. It still feels really bad and weird. Like . . . this is why my parents always told me to hide. And lie.

And it still happened.

[axefight]

[ he stares down at some spot on the table for a moment, his fingers audibly tapping. ]

Lying and hiding never work forever.

[supersweet]

[ Jon nods slowly. ]

I promised. So I can't change it right now.

[axefight]

That's fine. As long as you understand.

Bad things happen. Sometimes, all the precautions and all the strength in the world can't help you prevent it - only survive it.

[supersweet]

[ Jon glances at his hands. He couldn't break anything, the way he was now. Eventually, his powers will return. But . . . he likes the deafening silence. The lack of inhuman strength. ]

It was always going to happen, wasn't it? Because I'm from Krypton. Because of who I am.

[axefight]

[ he shakes his head. ]

If someone trips you, you don't blame yourself for having feet. You didn't make it happen.

You survived it this time, you were better than it, in the end - that's what matters.

Are you worried that it'll happen again?

[supersweet]

Yeah but . . . [ Jon gives a half-hearted shrug. ]

I think that's part of the world we live in. My dad's world. The superhero world.

I just gotta be better.

[axefight]

[ with the utmost confidence. ]

And you will be.

[supersweet]

. . . You really think so?

[axefight]

As long as you continue to want to learn, and grow, and improve yourself, you will. And to keep the people you love safe - that's the most powerful motivator.

[supersweet]

[ Determination slowly creeps into his expression as he nods. His sniffling has stopped. ]

Yeah. I've got to look out for my family too.