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Captain Steven Rockwell Trevor ([personal profile] rightly) wrote in [community profile] riverview2017-09-20 09:49 pm

text; anonymous

[ It's taken him some time to finally make up his mind and make this post. In fact, he lets it sit, all written up and ready to go, for a good while before deciding to go ahead with it. It's a silly thing, really; after Loki's taught him how to make an anonymous post, he knows no one will have any way of knowing it's him, so while he's admitting to something to the population of the Quarantine at large, no one will associate it with him, not unless he identifies himself.

He also knows he won't know the identity of anyone replying to the post, which at the moment is sort of the point. Anonymity is pretty useful in this situation. Eventually, depending on the answers he gets, he may just come to find the identity of some of these people, but for now, it offers some detachment, some distance. ]


I've been here for some weeks now, and I've come to realize that a few of us have been brought here because there was nothing else left for us. In other words, we are dead. Or we were, before we were brought back to life here. I know for a fact that I haven't been the only one to wake up at the hospital, surrounded by doctors and machinery, and it's admittedly something I'm still struggling with.

I'm not sure what to make of it. It fits what I've been told about how the portal is supposed to work. I felt out of place in the sense that I felt as if I'd reached the end of the line, that I'd have nothing else ahead of me. I'm yet to decide if this place is a new home for me, or if I'm living on borrowed time, but I won't lie: I'm glad to be alive and breathing.

It's difficult, though, not having someone to talk to about it. Granted, I'm not even sure I'd want to, but I'd like to have that option. Perhaps I'm not the only one who feels that way. Maybe a number of us are struggling in our minds with our situation, and we don't know if we can reach out, or to whom. So I've been wondering if, of those people in a similar situation to my own, anyone would be interested in some kind of get-together. A meeting to talk about our experiences— or even if you don't want to talk and would rather just listen to other people's stories, that's fine too.

I'm reluctant to share a lot about my own, so I admit I'm not all that sure about this. I guess I'm hoping for braver people than I to give me the push I likely need.


[ There, it's out of his system. It may amount to nothing but at least he's put it out there. ]
realists: (ro » accepting)

[personal profile] realists 2017-09-21 02:24 am (UTC)(link)
I'm not going to talk about it, but I'm in the same boat.

[ maybe it's so they won't feel alone or anything, but jyn knows that cassian specifically is in the same boat and they don't talk about any of this shit at all because nah. ]
realists: (ro » curious)

text ➙ forever

[personal profile] realists 2017-09-21 03:10 am (UTC)(link)
Solidarity maybe

[ like, it doesn't feel bad to know it's not just her and cassian, but at the same time she doesn't want anyone to start asking her how she died. ]

Your idea sounds like the folks that would get together at home and drink, comparing their scars from the war.
realists: (ro » piqued)

[personal profile] realists 2017-09-21 03:15 am (UTC)(link)
Might need to get people drunk to ease the tension.

[ see? she's being helpful now! ]
realists: (ro » careful)

[personal profile] realists 2017-09-21 03:23 am (UTC)(link)
If they cry drunk they probably need the cry
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[personal profile] realists 2017-09-23 05:02 pm (UTC)(link)
Let them cry I guess.

[ that's what maia would do ]
realists: (ro » watching)

[personal profile] realists 2017-09-24 07:10 pm (UTC)(link)
Not for you?

[ it sure as crap isn't for jyn. ]
realists: (ro » thoughtful)

[personal profile] realists 2017-09-26 11:45 am (UTC)(link)
You've never cried?

[ sounds fake but okay. maybe he just means drunk crying as a coping mechanism though ]
realists: (ro » surveil)

[personal profile] realists 2017-09-29 06:14 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't cry

[ liar. ]
realists: (ro » piqued)

[personal profile] realists 2017-10-04 02:30 pm (UTC)(link)
That's different. Babies cry because it's their only way to communicate their needs.

[ which is not an answer. ]
realists: (ro » holding)

[personal profile] realists 2017-10-06 09:24 pm (UTC)(link)
I cried when I was very small. It wasn't useful after that.
realists: (ro » wary)

[personal profile] realists 2017-10-11 04:20 am (UTC)(link)
I haven't had the luxury in some time.
realists: (ro » insistance)

[personal profile] realists 2017-10-18 04:03 pm (UTC)(link)
I do.

[ i'm sorry she is garbage, steve. :( ]