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[notreallyrobin]

hey uh
i bet you all get this a lot, but, uh, am i dead? like, straight up dead? is this purgatory?
because i really messed up and think i died and then i woke up in the hospital here and its all really
uh
a lot

and im kind of freaking out

ok yeah i guess i was about to die. and they explained all that but does that mean like, the me back home is dead??? or does that me just not exist anymore??????

(lowkey i still think this might be purgatory. if it was heaven i would have my own room.)

[ Gee. Stream-of-consciousness sure is easy when you're speaking to the void. But hey. It's better than staying in her bunk and going nuts alone. ]

ugh ok anyway someone distract me from existential bullshit
whats your favorite animal and why. best answer becomes my purgatory bff

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[notreallyrobin]

[ Yeah, Steph is a little afraid of that. ]

That's something you can just do here?

[threatenwithcuteness]

Well, it isn't something you just do. It's like super pricey most of the time.

[notreallyrobin]

damn how long have u been here that u saved enough??

[threatenwithcuteness]

I kinda won it? So it didn't actually cost me anything.

I was already trying to figure out how to keep myself looking like me, and this fell in my lap. It was kinda perfect.

[notreallyrobin]

Ohh, that's rad! How did you win it?

[threatenwithcuteness]

I don't really know, it just sorta showed up. And it was way too cool to ask questions.

*...Lola...*

[notreallyrobin]

That probably isn't the safest...

[threatenwithcuteness]

I fell through a magic space hole to everywhere, onto a moon. With magic and weirdness and I've just coped with how much things no longer make sense. I was about to turn seventeen in a city without my dad, or my best friends, or anyone from my old life. And I was stuck sharing a room with four other people, none of them my age, most of them men.

So yes, I got a little bit of surgery to give myself something super cool, because if I can't have my friends, or family, or anything like my old life I'll take advantage of what I can get here!

*So maybe this is just a year of pent up not dealing with her emotions.*

Sorry, sorry, you were worrying you were dead and that wasn't really called for. But... look, I did it, and as far as unsafe things. Getting my hair done is a lot safer than the monsters, and the acid rain, and the central housing building catching fire one night.

Like, when it comes to crazy, what I did to my hair is barely even abnormal here.

[notreallyrobin]

Wow, uh. You okay?

[ Steph has been through a lot recently, yeah, but that seems like...one hell of a lot. She bites her lip, and listens. Just for as long as it seems like she needs to. ]

I mean, yeah. I get it. I'm not immune to making kind of rash decisions. I'm a teenager and all.

[threatenwithcuteness]

I'm fine, I guess. I just have a lot of stuff going on. And pretty much everyone finds out what I did to my hair they question why I would do it and it just- it's kinda gotten old.

*Lola's remarkably good at keeping herself collected, but every so often a day just... she gets tired of it all.*

I did it, nothing bad happened, I'm fine. I got something that's very much mine and I love being able to do it. And no matter how much everyone questions it, it was my choice to make. Everyone gets super judgey when you do something they wouldn't do.

[notreallyrobin]

Nah, I kind of understand. I mean, I'm not like - I've never done anything super alternative to my hair, but I can understand that people are super judgmental. They're especially judgmental with teenage girls, so, I get it.

[ She considers for a little bit, before adding. ]

Besides, that kind of stuff seems way more safe here.

[threatenwithcuteness]

Like, why would a city that gives a bunch of strangers that just showed up a home, and a job, and all that they need just to let them die getting hair modifications? It doesn't make sense and everyone is super paranoid.

*Says the only girl without much reason to be paranoid.*

Plus, now I can have so many more outfits and not worry about if they clash with my hair.