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[earlofphantoms]

{ It's late and he should be sleeping, but rest evades him more often than he likes. Thus why he sticks to text. The other residents of the house needn't be woken. }

Do you believe in curses or fairytales? Can malicious magic be undone?

I have nothing to lose. Spare me no details.

{ Part of him wants to be disgusted. If someone can manage that then he will be suitably distracted from his own circling thoughts. }

Or we can share embarrassing stories.

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[happiertimes]

I've yet to meet anyone that doesn't have at least one or two. Except for very sheltered children.

[Thedosians tend to have more than just a few, of both kinds. It's a great world.]

[earlofphantoms]

Even sheltered children cannot be protected forever.

{ He tried. He thought he had it all covered. }

I tried.

[happiertimes]

Maker knows I never said it lasted forever. Keeping them from facing reality tends to lead to more trouble in the long run.

However, why in the world would you begin asking about such a topic this late at night?

[Of course Cullen's awake. What the hell is a normal sleep schedule?]

[earlofphantoms]

A lesson I learned much too harshly. I thought to introduce them to the world in measures.

Not all at once. Not in blood and violence.

I suppose I am haunted.

{ In his mind, in his bed... The nights are hard because he doesn't have his wife beside him. }

[happiertimes]

The world has a way of showing that it won't be ignored, no matter our intentions. It sounds as if you did more harm than good, despite having good intentions.

Haunted? By nightmares or by your mistakes?

[earlofphantoms]

I cannot argue with your assessment.

Both. My sleep is rarely easy and I relive my mistakes { his death } nightly. I wonder when my conscience will be sated?

[happiertimes]

You must learn to make as much peace with what's happened as you can. That's the only way to get a night's sleep that won't leave you more tired in the morning than when you laid down.

As for the rest, that's for you to decide.

[earlofphantoms]

Peace feels like a distant dream. If I could speak to my wife again, perhaps...

Until then, I must do my best.

[happiertimes]

Your best is the only thing that you can give in that situation and the most that anyone can ask of you. Anything more is unreasonable.

But are you giving it?