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[When the feed switches on, he's fixing his phone's position. His face isn't visible, but it is possible to see the outline of the wraps on his wrists, and the tattoos stretching up across his forearms.
Then he moves back to a stool set up in the room, perfectly lit and angled so that he's just barely obscured enough to show his silhouette without much detail in his appearance. He's not wearing his favorite hoodie for once, just a black band t-shirt with his silver necklace pulled out to be visible over the shirt. His gold necklace is still hidden under it.
The figure is in the middle of Eichi Tenshouin's bedroom, in the Tenshouin estate. Behind him, though the room is rather dark aside from a light he set up to light him from behind, the audience will be able to see a room that is mostly barren aside from a few posters of Wataru Hibiki, a bed and a desk covered in neatly-organized music sheets. It's a place that's really only recognizable if someone knew the original owner, and otherwise looks like a set rather than somewhere that someone lived.
For those who have yet to meet him, the figure in the video is Jamie Dodger. He's missing his right eye, there are deep scars across his face, and there are gauze wraps over his wrists that hide half of his forearms. For a man of only 25, he looks like he's walked through hell, but for once he isn't trying to boost up his street cred by threatening the network as a whole.
Instead he simply pulls out a guitar from behind the stool, and begins playing. The song he sings is slow and melancholy, a tribute for the man that he has spent nearly three weeks now mourning and is trying so hard to get over. Eichi had never gotten to hear him play... so he guesses it's sort of wishful thinking that playing publically would make him feel better about that, even if Eichi is no longer here to know it.
Though most people won't know the struggle that brought this song around, at least the music is good. Dodger is a skilled musician, and his voice is deep and gruff without sacrificing much range. More than anything, there's a lot of emotion in his singing. And when the song is over, he is silent for several seconds before getting up and wordlessly shutting off the feed.]
Then he moves back to a stool set up in the room, perfectly lit and angled so that he's just barely obscured enough to show his silhouette without much detail in his appearance. He's not wearing his favorite hoodie for once, just a black band t-shirt with his silver necklace pulled out to be visible over the shirt. His gold necklace is still hidden under it.
The figure is in the middle of Eichi Tenshouin's bedroom, in the Tenshouin estate. Behind him, though the room is rather dark aside from a light he set up to light him from behind, the audience will be able to see a room that is mostly barren aside from a few posters of Wataru Hibiki, a bed and a desk covered in neatly-organized music sheets. It's a place that's really only recognizable if someone knew the original owner, and otherwise looks like a set rather than somewhere that someone lived.
For those who have yet to meet him, the figure in the video is Jamie Dodger. He's missing his right eye, there are deep scars across his face, and there are gauze wraps over his wrists that hide half of his forearms. For a man of only 25, he looks like he's walked through hell, but for once he isn't trying to boost up his street cred by threatening the network as a whole.
Instead he simply pulls out a guitar from behind the stool, and begins playing. The song he sings is slow and melancholy, a tribute for the man that he has spent nearly three weeks now mourning and is trying so hard to get over. Eichi had never gotten to hear him play... so he guesses it's sort of wishful thinking that playing publically would make him feel better about that, even if Eichi is no longer here to know it.
Though most people won't know the struggle that brought this song around, at least the music is good. Dodger is a skilled musician, and his voice is deep and gruff without sacrificing much range. More than anything, there's a lot of emotion in his singing. And when the song is over, he is silent for several seconds before getting up and wordlessly shutting off the feed.]
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Are you, uh, lonely?
[ Jon doesn't quite get the loneliness adults may have. His life is simpler. More straightforward in terms of loneliness and how it manifests. He's seen glimmers of it in his parents. After all, they changed their names three times before they could be the Kents again. ]
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Yeah. I've had... a lot of friends disappear, the last few months. So I've been pretty lonely.
[Mae, Christian, and now Eichi... that's honestly more friends than he's had to lose in a long while. It's made him stay up at night worrying about losing the friends he has left, and it's... hard enough to make friends at all, without them going to a different world without warning.]
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[ His voice is halting as Jon tries to put it into words. ]
And I don't think they forgot or like . . . meant to.
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[He huffs softly.]
Tenshouin said he was sick of being here. He didn't want to die here, so after he got out of the hospital... he walked through the portal on his own.
[His voice halts as well, talking about it. There's so much... anger, and hurt, that he's trying to hold back for the kid's sake.]
He told me he was leaving and I did fuck all to stop him.
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I think — I mean, if you kept him here, you would have hated yourself. And he would be unhappy.
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I don't think you're old enough to get this yet, but... once you get to a certain point, 'you'll hate yourself' doesn't mean anything. You already regret so much of what you've done that hating yourself is... inevitable, y'know?
[He hesitates, before shaking his head.]
I've been hating myself since I was a little younger than your age, but I get your point. And yeah... it wouldn't be worth it. But I fuckin' miss him.
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[ He gets missing people. And while Jon has no real experience with hate, he has seen what hate can do. Manchester Black won't let him forget it. ]
I think maybe you just need to remember that this place doesn't care who you were before. So it kinda lets you be who you want?
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I think I've made a bad enough reputation for myself that that doesn't really apply anymore. Everyone in the quarantine sees me as a dangerous drunken lunatic.
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There are still new people coming in every day. And it's only been a few months. You still have time.
And you should cut down on drinking. It's not good for you.
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I know you won't really understand this, but... I need to drink. I can't handle myself without it.
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It's not that simple. Sorry, but it just won't happen. Drinking is how I stay sane.
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[ He lives in hope. That's literally his House motto. ]
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[This is the first time Dodger has used a harsh tone with Jon - he snaps suddenly, his eye sharpening and his face dropping to give him a cold look. And he continues to stare him down, watching for any sign that he might try to argue.]
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Okay.
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[He respects that the kid isn't scared, and a moment later he's softened back up. In fact, it... feels a little awkward to use a harsh tone, so he hesitates for a moment before deciding on a topic to switch to.]
...You, uh... hungry or anything?
[Is this how you talk to other people? He doesn't know.]
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I'm always hungry.