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[pietistic]

I'm curious how many people believe in fate here.

If you do, do you believe fates can be changed?

If you don't, what do you believe in?

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[pietistic]

I believe that sometimes we can accomplish things without knowing but I understand your feeling on the matter.

Do you think you can fulfill more than one or must you choose one to aspire to?

What is different about your world?

[burntbridges]

I can tell you without a shadow of a doubt that I accomplished nothing. There was no way for my actions to affect anyone, the way that my life was set up for me.

And if I managed all of the things I'd like to call my destiny, I might be the luckiest girl in the world. As much as I'd like it, I doubt it will come true.

[pietistic]

I see. That sounds terrible, if I may say so.

Why do you doubt it?

[burntbridges]

I've made many mistakes since I came to Riverview, the least of which being leaving. To be the woman I want to be... I believe it would take some mix of skill and miracles far beyond someone of my luck.

But going into more detail would require speaking of things that others would rather weren't public knowledge, so forgive me if I can't be more specific.

[pietistic]

I see.
Well, I do believe in miracles so perhaps things will turn out better than you expect.

It is quite alright.

[burntbridges]

Do you believe that someone who has broken another person's heart, knowing full well that they would, deserves another chance?

[pietistic]

Yes and no.

[burntbridges]

What do you mean by that?

[pietistic]

Would you do it again?

[burntbridges]

I had never intended to in the first place... I can't be sure it wouldn't happen again.

My mind is not always on my side. Sometimes I think very strongly that something is a good idea, when it shouldn't be. Awful things, like... breaking all the glass in the house with my hands, or leaving my daughter outside the wall. Sometimes I would lie awake beside my lover and think of pushing my thumbs through his eyes.

I couldn't honestly tell him that what happened wouldn't happen again. I could only tell him that losing him was the biggest regret of my life.

[pietistic]

It is hard to say for sure but I would say it is worth trying but perhaps you should try to correct some of the things that lead your mind to such places.