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[tanker]

[ With no introduction... ]

back home, one of the main things I used to do was train people to control their abilities - i've spent quite a number of years teaching myself control through various techniques, as it's pretty essential for me to keep things in check.

in a bid to feel useful to the community, interest check:

anyone want training sessions? whether you have abilities you're struggling with, or are just looking to get some more control over yourself, I can help.

[Or at least, try to. ]

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[mysophobic]

I think...that could work. [ He's not entirely sure but...he can definitely try that method. ]

I'd...really appreciate whatever help you can provide.

[tanker]

no problem. Controlling my power is basically the most important thing I've learned out to do over the years. It might take time, but it's worth it.

[mysophobic]

It's more about controlling myself, I think. I lose control when I...get stressed or angry. But also when I use my powers too much, that affects me as well.

I just don't want to...run the risk of hurting anyone again.

[tanker]

hey, I'm the same. This is why I use meditation, it's helped me a lot.

I understand. I'll do my best to help.

[mysophobic]

I use meditation as well and it's helped but...

[ Not enough to really be effective in fighting off that ever pervading presence. ]

But thank you. I...really appreciate it. If you ever need anything I work at the hospital as a doctor there.

[tanker]

let's see what we can do, together. i'll set up some sessions at the training ground soon - or would you rather we just sat down in private?

i'm pretty much indestructible, but knowing a doctor is always useful. have you been here long?

[mysophobic]

Would privately be okay? [ He doesn't want to alarm people should anything go wrong. Not that he feels anything will, but, he's not so sure anymore. ]

Indestructible? That's amazing. Does your body heal at an accelerated rate too?

And I've been here for almost a year now, actually. [ It really doesn't feel like it's been that long, huh. ]

[tanker]

absolutely. this is to help *you*, so whatever you want to do.

technically, I don't need to heal, as my bones can't be broken, my skin can't be pierced. But I do feel the pain. That tends to fade quite quickly.

[ It just leaves him stressed, is all. ]

and you're enjoying it?

[mysophobic]

I see. that's pretty amazing.

[ Though Shigeru has to wonder how he ever figured out such things... ]

I am. I've met so many different people and...some of them even helped me with my phobia. I don't think I'd ever have gotten this far if it weren't for this place.

[ It's definitely helped him in ways he never thought possible. ]

I also never thought I'd...get out as much as I have since being here. A lot can change in the span of a year, I guess.

[tanker]

get out?

[ Was Shigeru a recluse, back home? Not that John cared so much, but he was defeinitely very curious about the Quarantine. ]

your phobia is related to your power, isn't it?hopefully I'll be able to help, too. Not being scared of what you can do can only be beneficial.

[mysophobic]

[ Ah. This is where he's a bit awkward in talking about his phobia. But he knows John won't judgement so that at least makes it easier. ]

It's hard...doing things with mysophobia. So back home I never really...went out much. [ Of course he went to his job and on missions and things like that. But casual things were extremely hard for him. ]

But yes that's right. I...I've gotten better with it since coming here. But there's still a lot of things I want to do.

[tanker]

[ John makes a note to look up what it means, before asking Shigeru anything more about it - it's obviously a touchy topic. ]

you should make a list of the things you want to do, and achieve. every time you get to cross an item, we can celebrate.

[mysophobic]

A list...

[ Well he had done something similar back home. Not that he ever...got very far with it. For him that list was just a reminder of everything he kept falling back on and how he'd always move one step forward and two steps back. But here it was different, he knew that, so making a list might be feasible this time around. ]

I guess we can do that. I have a few things I still need...help with. And this is good for exposure therapy so I'll definitely make one.

[ he is going to try his best. ]

[tanker]

[ Imagine John giving you a thumb up, Shigeru. ]

I've found that trying to keep a positive outlook helps, in general. Don't get me wrong, it's hard. But I've found a lot more control in tapping into positive feelings than negative. Negative is destructive.

[mysophobic]

[ He appreciates you John! ]

It's a bit hard to stay positive, since I've been dealing with this all my life. I guess I just...want to be cured so badly that I want it to instantaneous.

But I know that's not how it works... [ Still he'll remain positive and power through it like he always does. ]

But you've helped put it in perspective so I'll do my best to remain positive!

[tanker]

I know that feeling.

[ He's seen it a lot - with Clarice in particular, in more recent memory. ]

you're right, it doesn't work like that, but steps, however small they are, are accomplishments and can be celebrated, as well. It might help looking at the big picture.

why don't we meet at the training grounds, say, tomorrow? when we're off work. we can talk it out further. and you don't have to worry about hurting me, so that's a plus.

[mysophobic]

Tomorrow? That's fine!

[ He wasn't expecting it to come up so fast! He has to...mentally prepare himself. Especially if they're going to be working on or doing anything with his phobia. ]

I look forward towards meeting you in person. I'll definitely be there!

[tanker]

If I can swing it. If you'd rather wait a few days or need some time to mull it over, that's fine, of course

but I'll be around the training grounds after my shift anyway.

[mysophobic]

No! It's fine. I don't mind meeting tomorrow at all.

Should I...bring anything?

[ He's set his mind towards this so he is definitely going to go. ]

[tanker]

anything you might need. if anything else with your powers, or with controlling them. Otherwise, no.

[mysophobic]

Alright. I'll be sure to meet you there then. And...thank you again for all of this.

[ He just hopes that something can come from it. But he's going to remain positive in the face of everything. ]