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If anyone has been contacted by Poe Dameron about being turned into a bird...
He is fine. He is well.For the time being. [deleted]
I'm taking care of it...
And I truly do apologize for his...excitement, for lack of a better term.
If anyone is upset, just contact me directly.
Thank you.
He is fine. He is well.
I'm taking care of it...
And I truly do apologize for his...excitement, for lack of a better term.
If anyone is upset, just contact me directly.
Thank you.
permaprivate;
Telling you I'm an adult isn't pulling rank. Reminding you that you're a kid and I'm an adult? That's pulling rank. And if I need to do it, Rey, then fine. You are not my keeper, you never were, and you will never be. I've been shooting people out of the sky almost longer than you've been alive. The only person in this galaxy or any other that I answer to without question is General Organa.
[ He sighs. ] Should I have told you differently? Yeah, maybe. Am I sorry I did it? No, I'm not. I have my reasons, and I don't owe them to you. Be mad at me. That's fine. But don't pretend that this was somehow more dangerous than strapping myself into an X-wing and throwing my life at the First Order. This was a friend giving me a gift I couldn't have dreamed of back home, and me turning it into trouble for him.
I will do what I want, and it's not because I don't care about your feelings. It's because I don't belong to you. I'm your friend. That's true. But I am also the person I was before you met me, and that's not going to change.
permaprivate;
I am not asking you to answer to me, nor did I sign up to be your keeper.
You're right, you don't owe me a damn thing. You have your reasons, Poe, and I never asked for them. I only wanted to make sure you were fine. At least I know how ships work and at least I know you have damn chance of coming out of a battle alive. Magic? I don't know a damn thing about it or what to do if something did happen.
I have my reasons for being mad at you, but I'm trying to be supportive of you. I'm not trying to change you in any way, Poe.
But what you fail to see is the bigger picture in all of this. If you can't see it, I can't help you.
[He left, not of his own will, she knows, but damnit he did. She was dealing with the emotions of losing him, of thinking she could've prevented his departure and worrying that she might fail at that again.
And damnit, it hurts to be fighting with him.]
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[ Poe rubs his face with both hands. ]
Which bigger picture? There are a lot of big pictures these days.
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[She is an adult, she's had to make decisions and if he cannot see that...then that's on him.
And she wants to be childish, and tell him to figure it out. But she can't bring herself to do that.]
You were gone. [Her voice sounds so small then.] You left and I didn't look for you until after the fact. I should've kept a better eye on you, checked in with you to make sure you were okay.
[There's a breath where she shoves more of her emotions down and speaks in a harsher tone.] But I'm not your keeper, so good to know I worried for nothing. Good to know that I spent days blaming myself for what happened, for nothing.
Don't worry, this 'kid' won't concern herself with your well being.
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[ He wasn't mad. He was tired, he was frustrated, sure. But he wasn't mad.
A moment of silence, of anger held back, and when he speaks, it's quietly. ]
Muran. Lampar. Kun. Asty. Arana. Furillo. Meltsa. Seastriker. Teffer. Wright. I could keep going. Do you know any of those names? Do you know any of those names?
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I'm here. I'm right here. I won't go anywhere while the two of you are still here. Not of my own free will. We promised to look after each other, we promised not to leave each other, and if one of us disappears I'm entirely comfortable burning this place to the ground to find out where that person went. But if one of us does disappear, it is no one's fault. If one of us does disappear, it's not because we didn't care enough. This is life. In life, people die. They vanish. The universe takes them. There's nothing we can do about that but keep living until we get taken ourselves.
[ It's a fucking harsh way to try and prove his point, but there they are. ]
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Then why bother to make a damn promise, Poe? What's the difference between you leaving and you being killed by magic? They're one in the same to me. I was worried, I had a right to be worried, but fine. I won't worry anymore.
Why should I care if someone else leaves? Everyone else does.
[She's tired of talking, and that last bit took a lot out of her. Only a few people have seen that memory of her being left behind.
The conversation ends with Rey hanging up.]