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What do you do...when you know there's no way to really change anything in your future? Knowing that something bad is going to happen to you and you might change into something you fear.

[ Of course even if it weren't for the alternate reality fiasco he'd changed into a monster before back home. He feels...so hopeless in not turning into a horrifying monster here that he's not sure what to do. Especially after what happened recently at the light festival. ]

Even if you prepare for it as best as you can... [ there's just no way a phrobiest can ever outrun turning into a monster, is there? Or...perhaps there is here. Which was the main point of all of this in the first place. ]

I'd like to ask if anyone has a power suppression collar, or something that can aid in power suppression. I'd be really grateful if you could message me about it.

[ He's sort of desperate and he's not sure if meditation will be enough. He wants to make sure...that if it happens again he can stop himself next time. ]

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I guess so, I mean... I don't normally use it to that extreme.

I think it depends? It seems like the brain is an incredible organ but also a weak point.
I was... able to cure someone important of me of a genetic condition with Scrap once.

...I've been too afraid to use it again.

[ Ah, he's been so afraid of talking about it too. This is the first he's really said this much about it. What's going on with him... is it because it's Shigeru? Aoba thinks maybe it's a bit of that and the fact that he knows he's going through a familiar struggle.

Or maybe... it's because he's felt lonely in his own. It's an ugly thought, a selfish one. But probably closer to the truth. ]

Someone started a fight with you?!

[ Shigeru has such a calming presence, even when he's nervous. It might be because he can't speak, forcing him to take the time to formulate his responses and register his... but nevertheless, he can't see Shigeru as the type to start a fight. ]

It sounds a little like my powers then. I can cure people of genetic disorders too. But that's because I can rebuild and remake their genes in a way.

I can't say I blame you...for being afraid. I'm always a little afraid of using my powers, especially right now. [ When he can't seem to control himself when he's angry or stressed out. But when he brings up his fight with Dodger he pauses and takes a few seconds to reply again. ]

It was...both our faults. He has a...bad temper and I just lost control of myself for something he said. [ He feels so ashamed and terrible about it. ]

I...I shouldn't have done that. But it just made me so angry.

Remake their genes... that's incredible. But I guess I can see why this could be a little scary.

Is he okay, this friend you didn't get along with? What do you mean by a 'bad temper', anyway?

... He didn't hurt you, did he?

[ Ah at that question he sure is glad Aoba can't see the state of him with his black eye, split lip, that cut across the bridge of his nose...

His head is wrapped in bandages as well as his back. Dodger had really...done a number on him this time around. If Shigeru wasn't as powerful as he was he'd definitely be dead. It only makes it worse when Aoba asks that. ]

He's fine. I came back to my senses before I did anything bad. He gets...really mad sometimes and can't really control himself either. But it's nothing. I'm okay.

[ He's lying so bad right now. Shigeru is anything but alright. His curt replies and lack of emotion behind them are also pretty indicative of this. ]

Edited 2018-02-03 03:21 (UTC)

Can't control himself?

[ The Shigeru he knows isn't the type to just fly off the handle, he's so calm, and honestly all that typing probably diffuses any sort of argument, right? Since it takes longer for him to formulate his response, there's time enough for hot blooded types to cool...

Right? ]

Shigeru-san

What's the real reason why you're anonymous? Isn't it because you don't want that other person to know you're looking for this kind of solution?

[ Aoba doesn't like suspecting people, but he's lived in a tough place for all his life. This really isn't any of his business, but he likes Shigeru and thinks he's hurt by whomever seems to have anger management issues. ]

No. It...it's not like that. [ Yes it is. But he hardly sees why that's an issue. He just doesn't want anyone to worry. ]

I didn't want to...worry anyone. I don't think they'll understand that I can't fight it. I can't fight the influence of a god.

[ No one can, which is why the inevitability of it all only makes this worse. ]

I wanted to try and figure another way on my own.

[ Aoba can understand why he'd want to avoid making people worry. But also, there are a few warning flags that he can't ignore either. ]

Honestly, I'm concerned too. But I'm more concerned to hear that this person...

What I mean is

When that person loses control, do they hit you? Yell at you?

[ Shigeru pauses as he reads that. It's not...like that. Well not usually. It's happened before but...not since recently. ]

He yells, but he doesn't hit me. This just happened because we got into an argument.

[ He also says some pretty mean things but Shigeru doesn't mention that. This was just an argument bad enough that Dodger almost killed him. But none of this is...good either. And it's not making his case any better, is it? ]

But I'm really okay. I...I didn't help matters doing what I did either. [ But only because Dodger pushed him to his limit. ]

Scolding isn't necessarily bad, but I don't understand how someone like Shigeru-san, who can so calmly care for the wounded when a fire broke out in the apartments...

How can someone like this lose control? It tells me that Shigeru-san is under a lot of stress.

[ He probably shouldn't get involved, but... Shigeru is a friend. He's got enough problems and he's... worried. ]

[ It is stressful...a lot of it is due to stress and weariness and other things. Dodger getting on his case about Genji all the time is one of the main stressors in his life, it's true. But he's doing better with managing it. ]

I'm fine, Aoba. I am stressed. But I...I meditate and that helps a great deal.

As long as you're fine...

I'd like to visit you soon, if that's okay. There's someone dear to me I'd like for you to meet!

[ He's changing the subject, skirting around the uncomfortable topic in favor of unburdening them with it and instead focusing on happier things. And gossip. ]

And you can update me on the latest developments of Shigeru-san's love life with Mr. Casanova.

[ It's a good time for some topic changing honestly. Shigeru doesn't mind it in the least. ]

Someone dear to you? You mean like a family member? Or maybe it's your own Casanova? [ Shigeru please?! He's trying to be funny, leave him alone. Although he really wants Genji to meet Aoba for real. They'd probably get along...

But that next message has his face going all sorts of shades of red. ]

Maybe you can come by one day and meet him? I think you two would get along.

[ Aoba looks at Ren and chuckles. ]

This one is someone special from home, but I wouldn't exactly call him a Casanova. But he's got his own kind of charm!

Uwah!! Meet that hero you've talked about?! I'd seriously love to?!

Then we should...do something fun! Maybe we can go out to eat somewhere and you can finally meet him!

[ Little does Shigeru know... ]

Genji is really nice! I think you two will get along.

That sounds great!

...Let's do this soon, I'd like to see you again.

[ And make sure you're safe, that you're really okay and not just saying you are... that's what Aoba wants to say, but knows sometimes it's best to keep quiet. ]

Okay! That sounds good to me!

We haven't talked in awhile so...I'm looking forward to it.

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