Personally, I believe in a purpose but I am not sure I would have called it fate. It does have different meanings for different people, I hadn't thought of that when I wrote this.
That is true. I have always believed in free will. It is possible to not fulfill your destiny or purpose by your own choices.
We are all destined to die. I suppose I believe that what we do in the meantime is up to us. I definitely like the idea of having a purpose... but if I have one I can't say I did a good job of fulfilling it.
Unless my destiny was to come to this place, and meet those from other worlds. Then perhaps there is a place for me.
This is an awfully grim subject, though. I always think of such things as my territory.
If you are still here, do you not have the chance to fulfill your purpose still? It seems that if everything does happen for a reason then you being here in some shape is part of your purpose. Perhaps, you are shaping something that you cannot see yet.
Not the purpose meant for me in my home world, no. I'm dead there - if I returned, my soul would be extinguished. I can only exist outside of the world I was born into.
What is more grim than the thought that nothing can be changed?
Now, that is grim. I accomplished nothing before my death, I would rather believe it was not my purpose.
However, if we're speaking strictly of this world, I can think of a few destinies I would like to have. The world is much more open here than the one I came from.
I can tell you without a shadow of a doubt that I accomplished nothing. There was no way for my actions to affect anyone, the way that my life was set up for me.
And if I managed all of the things I'd like to call my destiny, I might be the luckiest girl in the world. As much as I'd like it, I doubt it will come true.
I've made many mistakes since I came to Riverview, the least of which being leaving. To be the woman I want to be... I believe it would take some mix of skill and miracles far beyond someone of my luck.
But going into more detail would require speaking of things that others would rather weren't public knowledge, so forgive me if I can't be more specific.
I had never intended to in the first place... I can't be sure it wouldn't happen again.
My mind is not always on my side. Sometimes I think very strongly that something is a good idea, when it shouldn't be. Awful things, like... breaking all the glass in the house with my hands, or leaving my daughter outside the wall. Sometimes I would lie awake beside my lover and think of pushing my thumbs through his eyes.
I couldn't honestly tell him that what happened wouldn't happen again. I could only tell him that losing him was the biggest regret of my life.
It is hard to say for sure but I would say it is worth trying but perhaps you should try to correct some of the things that lead your mind to such places.
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That is true. I have always believed in free will. It is possible to not fulfill your destiny or purpose by your own choices.
It's my thought of the week, I suppose.
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Unless my destiny was to come to this place, and meet those from other worlds. Then perhaps there is a place for me.
This is an awfully grim subject, though. I always think of such things as my territory.
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Do you really think it grim?
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What is more grim than the thought that nothing can be changed?
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then?
Some people seem to find comfort in it if that is how they see fate.
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However, if we're speaking strictly of this world, I can think of a few destinies I would like to have. The world is much more open here than the one I came from.
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Do you think you can fulfill more than one or must you choose one to aspire to?
What is different about your world?
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And if I managed all of the things I'd like to call my destiny, I might be the luckiest girl in the world. As much as I'd like it, I doubt it will come true.
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Why do you doubt it?
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But going into more detail would require speaking of things that others would rather weren't public knowledge, so forgive me if I can't be more specific.
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Well, I do believe in miracles so perhaps things will turn out better than you expect.
It is quite alright.
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My mind is not always on my side. Sometimes I think very strongly that something is a good idea, when it shouldn't be. Awful things, like... breaking all the glass in the house with my hands, or leaving my daughter outside the wall. Sometimes I would lie awake beside my lover and think of pushing my thumbs through his eyes.
I couldn't honestly tell him that what happened wouldn't happen again. I could only tell him that losing him was the biggest regret of my life.
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