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[ Two very green eyes (wide, without their usual cunning gleam) stare into the camera when the recording goes live, glancing up to the username that appears. Reading it, he mutters 'Loki of Asgard' and frowns, glancing around himself as though somebody else may spring up and claim the phone. When they don't, Loki runs an anxious hand through his hair and lets out a controlled sigh at length, standing awkwardly in his tee and jeans in the Floor Five lounge. ]

This phone I woke up with in my pocket is locked and it won't let me do more than make an emergency call. I know I'm on a moon for some reason, what the fuck, so if this is the local nine-one-one line I'd like some assistance, please.

[ 'Calm under strain' would be an apt description. ]

Such as, ah ... What's Asgard? And, how did I just freeze my bed solid? Because I totally did. [ In a panic when he woke up bewildered, oops. ] I — I'm not sure what to do.

( ooc: forward-dating this to tomorrow bc i work full-time and won't be around; loki is suffering a near-complete memory loss for the event. he doesn't remember who he is, his fam & friends, that he is magic as heck, how to use said magic, or his extensive horrid history. all he knows is that he agreed to come to a moon and once had an apartment in manhattan. )

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You love me, don't you? You said so. I'm missing my memory, not a moral compass. You're making sure I know I'm not alone and that's ...

That is a lovely act of kindness which means the world to me.

[ Looking at the pizza without seeing it for the middle-distance, he shakes his head and lays it on Tony's shoulder with a sigh. ]

For a while in that apartment I was afraid nobody would answer. Then when they did it was like hearing about a fairytale character, none of it had substance as if ... as if nobody really knew me. It was worrying. Apparently being an almighty god means you don't open up to many people, even my supposed siblings ...

[ Away from that in a charming little diner with Tony as a responsible alpha figure to trust whole-heartedly, Loki can close his eyes and settle in with a snuggle. ]

But now that you have found me, it bodes well.

[ while Loki speaks, Tony just sits there more than a little stunned. this is the core of what and who they are, this truth that Loki speaks when he can't remember what he is supposed to be angry with. as soon as he leans on Tony, the engineer rests his cheek atop his head and winds an arm around him tight.

when he speaks his words are muffled, a little choked.]

You have... a lot of trust issues, you know. I don't... you've never told me everything, and I have never asked you but-- there is a reason there are not many people who know you, or this you. But-- I am glad that you're here.

[ with me. on this moon. at this time.

all of the above.]

Wanna take the rest to go? There are two more, but I am sure that you will be able to eat more on the walk back.

[ Agreeing to take the rest of the food to go, he scoots out of the booth to wait for the staff to box up each pizza. Loki idly chews the side of his mouth as he loiters, still curious about the comments made. ]

What made me have trust issues?

[ It can't be an automatic 'god of lies' thing, surely, because he trusts Tony just fine. ]

I don't... I don't really know, honestly. I know it has something to do with your past self? Your future self? The Old Man, as we call him.

[ yeah, he realizes that sounds a little weird, but he really doesn't know how else to phrase it. he also really doesn't know the details, it was something that they both never really discussed. much like they don't talk about Tony's darker times. Tony takes the pizzas in a bag, and wraps an arm around Loki.]

I won't lie, you have a lot of shit luck, and I'm not sure how much of it is because you are the god of chaos and lies or... not.

[ Loki wrinkles his nose; most of it makes no sense but the looming unfairness of a miserable life is back and he wraps an arm around Tony as they walk. Head bowed, he frets by nibbling his lips. ]

I'm alright now, I'm different, so there's nothing to worry about.

[ Unsure whether hearing those words is for the benefit of Tony or himself. ]

I promise.

[ If he knew better, ironically, he wouldn't. ]

Don't---

[ Tony's voice is soft as he stops, just outside the entrance of the pizza parlour, moving to get Loki to look up at him. ]

Don't apologize Loki. You are what you are and I love you in spite of all that. And yeah, if you turn into the god of evil and chaos again and I will be the first one out there to stop you but-- I think you would want me to.

[ and he means that. he knows that Loki tries hard to distance himself from what he was. or will be. or could be. and that-- that means a lot to Tony. makes him think that there is potential there even if sometimes he is the only one who sees it. there are things that you cannot escape, at least theoretically, but he knows that Loki is trying. and until he was the being that burned Asgard, or kills his friends, Tony was okay with accepting him as he is.]

You are always Loki, no matter. And that doesn't have to be a bad thing.

[ There Tony goes again, being the perfect boyfriend. It's enough to make Loki wonder what he did to deserve this much support even if he can't bring himself to question it. ]

It would just be nice if everyone else felt that way, too.

[ That might be why he is reluctant to leave Tony's side; more voices can deafen out one. ]

You aren't going to win them all over, love. Really.

[ there is laughter on his lips as he starts to walk again, arm easily around the god.]

And honestly? Pretty sure you don't give a lot of them a reason to feel any other way. You are... ah... picky about who you give the benefit of the doubt. Not too sure why you were actually nice to me all those months ago honestly... Kinda glad you were though.

Probably because you're not a moron.

[ Which seems to be his baseline when considering people. He means it fondly toward Tony, anyway. ]

Also handsome, that may have helped.

[ that makes Tony laugh loud and sharp. yeah, okay. that-- is up for debate honestly.]

Uh huh, I will have to ask you that when you remember. Because pretty sure you mock the facial hair a great deal, but good to know my brain and looks are still getting noticed.

The prettiest brain in town, from what I've seen today.

[ The arm around Tony's waist squeezes a bit too strongly but only for a moment as Loki shares a cuddle while they walk. ]

I will take it! Though you also have a hell of a brain, as much as I hate magic, you are impressed with it.

[ the squeeze knocks the breath out of him for a moment, but he doesn't stop moving, just hitches a breath and--]

Damn, I need to get you more comfortable with using your strength regularly....

That sounds like a fun way to spend the afternoon.

[ Mischief still lurks in the corners of his eyes as the innocent comment rings out. ]

...it would be, I think.

[ don't look at him like that, damnit! he knows that it is something that you aren't comfortable with when you can remember it. ]

[ Huh. Oddly hesitant reaction, best to take note of that. ]

Yeah? You want me to use my strength on you, Tony?

[ The most unblinking stare. ]

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