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[inlaid]

So tell me something.

If someone wants to go home the people in charge here will do their best to get the portal aligned so they can do just that. At the same time, there's no guarantee they'll ever manage that that someone. Which means that a person waiting for a chance to go home could end up waiting not just for weeks or months but years. Maybe even the rest of their blighted life.

Knowing this, do you think it's better to hold back putting down roots just to make it easier to get up and go if the time comes? Even if it means you may be living your life among the people but distinctly separate from them as they build their lives here?

Or is it stupid to waste time, to waste your life and potential happiness on the off chance that one day you may get to return home one day?

[Is she just being stubborn because she won't be a Council Agent anymore if she doesn't return home, or because it feels like she's selling out for an easier lifestyle and having magic at long last? Her pride and sense of honor stings at the thought. The idea of never seeing her family again, of trading them up these things makes her taste ashes in her mouth. Then again she doesn't really have a choice in the matter right now anyway. She's not actually giving anything up at this point.

Really, the more she thinks about it, the more she's coming to realize that no matter what happens, she's going to have to make sacrifices of one sort or another.]

If any has an opinion or any insight I'd appreciate it.

[There's only so long she can sit on this fence before she drives herself even crazier than she feels now.]

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text | un: w.west

[otherflash]

Someone close to me back home once told me that every second is a gift. It took me awhile, but I finally understood just how right he was.

So my advice to someone would be to focus on the here and now if they can. I know that is easier said than done, but nobody really knows what the future will bring.

[inlaid]

In some ways it's a shame we don't know. It would make these decisions we have to make easier.

Focusing on the here and now is probably about all we can do in the end...

Have you been finding that easy for you?

[otherflash]

It's something I'm struggling with if I'm being honest.

[ Trying to figure out what his life is rather than focusing on what it was is something he has been dealing with even before he arrived here a few months ago. ]

I do know that being adrift like I have been isn't working for me, that I want something more. Knowing that hasn't made things any simpler, though.

[inlaid]

As nice as it is to hear I'm not the only one feeling this way I'm sorry you're in the same predicament.

Do you know what kind of more you're missing right now? Or need while you're here?

[otherflash]

It's okay. Truth is my life was already rather complicated back home. Being here is just a different kind of complicated.

I'd settle for something real. I know it isn't all that helpful, but I've spent a lot of time holding onto something that might not be there.

[inlaid]

...that might be one of the most helpful things someone has said to me in response to my post, actually.

The portal opening up and getting me home is a possibility but it may very well be very slim, or even nonexistent. But being here is real. Being here is my present and foreseeable future.

[otherflash]

Which is why I think we should try to make the most of it.

It could make things a little more difficult to leave if we get that chance, but I think that would just mean our time in this place was worthwhile.

[inlaid]

It's so simple and straightforward. I don't understand how I couldn't have seen it myself...

Thank you. I had hoped that someone would be able to put it clearly like that because I was too twisted up in my own thoughts to figure it out.

[otherflash]

Sometimes you just need to get out of your own head. This cleared some things up for me, too.

But I'm glad I could help. I hope things work out for you.

[inlaid]

Thank you, I hope that things work out for you as well.