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[ikols]

[ Two very green eyes (wide, without their usual cunning gleam) stare into the camera when the recording goes live, glancing up to the username that appears. Reading it, he mutters 'Loki of Asgard' and frowns, glancing around himself as though somebody else may spring up and claim the phone. When they don't, Loki runs an anxious hand through his hair and lets out a controlled sigh at length, standing awkwardly in his tee and jeans in the Floor Five lounge. ]

This phone I woke up with in my pocket is locked and it won't let me do more than make an emergency call. I know I'm on a moon for some reason, what the fuck, so if this is the local nine-one-one line I'd like some assistance, please.

[ 'Calm under strain' would be an apt description. ]

Such as, ah ... What's Asgard? And, how did I just freeze my bed solid? Because I totally did. [ In a panic when he woke up bewildered, oops. ] I — I'm not sure what to do.





( ooc: forward-dating this to tomorrow bc i work full-time and won't be around; loki is suffering a near-complete memory loss for the event. he doesn't remember who he is, his fam & friends, that he is magic as heck, how to use said magic, or his extensive horrid history. all he knows is that he agreed to come to a moon and once had an apartment in manhattan. )

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[ikols]

[ Bumped by a hip, he returns the favour. ]

If this moon was my home then I wouldn't like invaders to exterminate me, either. Couldn't you have simply moved them out?

[amelioraate]

That... that is exactly what your argument was actually. [ his laughter is drowned out by the bell over the door of the pizza parlour as he opens it, gesturing Loki inside. ] You and Stephen Strange did exactly that. Well, most of them. the ones that come too far in and are too volatile are... dealt with. But otherwise, I just want to deter them from coming into the city.

[ikols]

That sounds fair.

[ Loki slides his way into a booth, scooting up to make room for Tony on his side of the couches. Absolutely greedy for contact too, Tony isn't the only one. ]

So, who did you date before me?

[ Back to the main topic, evidently. Tony is now Loki's most important person on a moon where he recognises no one, so it follows. ]

[amelioraate]

[ there is no hesitation in him sliding into the booth next to Loki, smiling and thanking the waitress as she brings over the first of three pizzas that have been ordered.

Tony knows how much Loki loves pizza, okay? And this one is basically crust, cheese, and bacon. ]

Ah, here? No one. Back home well... people.

[there is a flicker there, something a little wounded. that was still something he knows needs to be discussed. but not now. ]

[ikols]

[ Taking a bite of his pizza (very much his, yes) he snuggles up beside Tony and waits to have swallowed before offering the same slice. Just as casually, he asks, ]

Want me to scare them? I'll put on my scary god-face.

[amelioraate]

[ that makes Tony blanch, even as he takes a bite of the pizza.]

Uh, no. Not-- not even a little. You don't-- never mind, but you don't need to scare anyone.

[ikols]

[ A chuckle brims, spilling into his next mouthful. ]

Mm. I wouldn't know how, don't fret. Just kidding, Anthony.

[amelioraate]

[ there is something far less complicated with this version of Loki; the myth and blood in his history not twisting how he sees the world. not making him fearful in a sense.

Tony likes it, but it also unsettles him ever so slightly. ]

I am sure you would figure it out, you are brilliant like that, Starshine. [ he picks a piece of bacon off the slice Loki has with a quirk of a grin and pops it in his mouth. ]

[ikols]

Hmph. [ Stuffing the rest of the slice in his mouth, he washes it down and gives an airy shrug. ] And who was I dating before I decided to slum it with you?

[ Poking him in the thigh. ]

[amelioraate]

Mmm, don't think you were dating anyone, but you have had a few bedmates.

[ don't mind him picking at more bacon, okay. this isn't a conversation he wants to have because he isn't even sure that you usually know about him knowing about the others.]

And I will have you know, I am the classiest slum, wow.

[ikols]

I'll bet you are, since they're not the ones I'm with.

[ It's a hesitant joke, twisting around a bit more so he can offer up another slice of pizza like a consolation prize for the truth. Green eyes, usually canny and plotting, are skittish and hopeful. ]

This one has more bacon.

[amelioraate]

You do have amazing taste in slums, I guess.

[ it is spoken lightly, as he leans in to snag a bit of the pizza. he knows that there is something more to all of this, that Loki is constructing truths from these idle conversations, but Tony doesn't know how much is Loki and how much is lack of memory and--

he wonders if Loki will remember this after it is all over. ]

Wow, you must really like me if you are offering me bacon.

[ikols]

[ Watching Tony make idle conversation in return, Loki places a hand on the small of Tony's back and leans in to kiss him on the cheek, breath cheesy but his lips warmer than usual. ]

If I forget even more later, thank you for coming for me. And for this too, all of it.

[ The date, the ... general care. Tony's patience and enduring love despite garnering little more than an earnest crush in return; Loki is sure he deserves better. Not that he knows how things are between them but he can sense this is a good relationship, something that inspires the same safe feeling as sitting by a hearth with a full stomach, inside away from the rain.

(Why does the thought of rain suddenly make him feel sad?) ]

I'm certain I didn't want to lose you the first time around, either.

[amelioraate]

[ the pressure against his cheek makes Tony smile, a flickering honest thing that warms him at his core. he knows that the sentiment is honest, that Loki is thankful, and it creates unease and calm in Tony all at once. how much of the Loki that he knows is born of less than favourable circumstance? how is it that a Loki with no memories is this sweet creature and one with memories is fickle and occasionally cruel.

though this isn't the time for questions on the nature of beings, he turns the smile to Loki and hums. ]

You are most welcome, Starshine.

[ there is another bite of pizza before he furrows his brows.] What do you mean by that?

[ikols]

You love me, don't you? You said so. I'm missing my memory, not a moral compass. You're making sure I know I'm not alone and that's ...

That is a lovely act of kindness which means the world to me.

[ Looking at the pizza without seeing it for the middle-distance, he shakes his head and lays it on Tony's shoulder with a sigh. ]

For a while in that apartment I was afraid nobody would answer. Then when they did it was like hearing about a fairytale character, none of it had substance as if ... as if nobody really knew me. It was worrying. Apparently being an almighty god means you don't open up to many people, even my supposed siblings ...

[ Away from that in a charming little diner with Tony as a responsible alpha figure to trust whole-heartedly, Loki can close his eyes and settle in with a snuggle. ]

But now that you have found me, it bodes well.

[amelioraate]

[ while Loki speaks, Tony just sits there more than a little stunned. this is the core of what and who they are, this truth that Loki speaks when he can't remember what he is supposed to be angry with. as soon as he leans on Tony, the engineer rests his cheek atop his head and winds an arm around him tight.

when he speaks his words are muffled, a little choked.]

You have... a lot of trust issues, you know. I don't... you've never told me everything, and I have never asked you but-- there is a reason there are not many people who know you, or this you. But-- I am glad that you're here.

[ with me. on this moon. at this time.

all of the above.]

Wanna take the rest to go? There are two more, but I am sure that you will be able to eat more on the walk back.

[ikols]

[ Agreeing to take the rest of the food to go, he scoots out of the booth to wait for the staff to box up each pizza. Loki idly chews the side of his mouth as he loiters, still curious about the comments made. ]

What made me have trust issues?

[ It can't be an automatic 'god of lies' thing, surely, because he trusts Tony just fine. ]

[amelioraate]

I don't... I don't really know, honestly. I know it has something to do with your past self? Your future self? The Old Man, as we call him.

[ yeah, he realizes that sounds a little weird, but he really doesn't know how else to phrase it. he also really doesn't know the details, it was something that they both never really discussed. much like they don't talk about Tony's darker times. Tony takes the pizzas in a bag, and wraps an arm around Loki.]

I won't lie, you have a lot of shit luck, and I'm not sure how much of it is because you are the god of chaos and lies or... not.

[ikols]

[ Loki wrinkles his nose; most of it makes no sense but the looming unfairness of a miserable life is back and he wraps an arm around Tony as they walk. Head bowed, he frets by nibbling his lips. ]

I'm alright now, I'm different, so there's nothing to worry about.

[ Unsure whether hearing those words is for the benefit of Tony or himself. ]

I promise.

[ If he knew better, ironically, he wouldn't. ]

[amelioraate]

Don't---

[ Tony's voice is soft as he stops, just outside the entrance of the pizza parlour, moving to get Loki to look up at him. ]

Don't apologize Loki. You are what you are and I love you in spite of all that. And yeah, if you turn into the god of evil and chaos again and I will be the first one out there to stop you but-- I think you would want me to.

[ and he means that. he knows that Loki tries hard to distance himself from what he was. or will be. or could be. and that-- that means a lot to Tony. makes him think that there is potential there even if sometimes he is the only one who sees it. there are things that you cannot escape, at least theoretically, but he knows that Loki is trying. and until he was the being that burned Asgard, or kills his friends, Tony was okay with accepting him as he is.]

You are always Loki, no matter. And that doesn't have to be a bad thing.

[ikols]

[ There Tony goes again, being the perfect boyfriend. It's enough to make Loki wonder what he did to deserve this much support even if he can't bring himself to question it. ]

It would just be nice if everyone else felt that way, too.

[ That might be why he is reluctant to leave Tony's side; more voices can deafen out one. ]

[amelioraate]

You aren't going to win them all over, love. Really.

[ there is laughter on his lips as he starts to walk again, arm easily around the god.]

And honestly? Pretty sure you don't give a lot of them a reason to feel any other way. You are... ah... picky about who you give the benefit of the doubt. Not too sure why you were actually nice to me all those months ago honestly... Kinda glad you were though.

[ikols]

Probably because you're not a moron.

[ Which seems to be his baseline when considering people. He means it fondly toward Tony, anyway. ]

Also handsome, that may have helped.

[amelioraate]

[ that makes Tony laugh loud and sharp. yeah, okay. that-- is up for debate honestly.]

Uh huh, I will have to ask you that when you remember. Because pretty sure you mock the facial hair a great deal, but good to know my brain and looks are still getting noticed.

[ikols]

The prettiest brain in town, from what I've seen today.

[ The arm around Tony's waist squeezes a bit too strongly but only for a moment as Loki shares a cuddle while they walk. ]