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Nov. 10th, 2018 01:10 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
... I am back in town.
[It had been longer than she planned, really. She had a lot of things to think about — after all the harm she'd done, even if it wasn't her will to do it... It left a lot of room for uncertainty. Fear and panic for those she cared about. Part of her wondered if it would just be better, to stay out there like some little hermit child. It left room to think, though, about her time here. She's so much different, isn't she? Not in blinding ways. But she would like to hope that she's... improved. Became something bigger and better than the girl in the small cell, back in Mexico City.]
I'm back in school, too. People like Strange would be upset if I played 'hooky' anymore, even with them gone. I will — keep trying. To live like a person, to be someone. I think it is important to the people before me. It does not change what has happened... any of it. But it is making something for later, I think. That is what I've settled for, in my head.
To be better. And to not be what I was made for; I want to... think about things I can be... when I am older.
[She fidgets with the old, raggedy strap of her backpack, considerate. There's no limit of hesitancy to her voice, but even so—]
Is there something... You think changed for you? As a person?
After staying here.
Is there something you would still like to change?
... Maybe we can work on things together.
[She hopes, in the end, that it'll be enough to make her father proud of her.]
[It had been longer than she planned, really. She had a lot of things to think about — after all the harm she'd done, even if it wasn't her will to do it... It left a lot of room for uncertainty. Fear and panic for those she cared about. Part of her wondered if it would just be better, to stay out there like some little hermit child. It left room to think, though, about her time here. She's so much different, isn't she? Not in blinding ways. But she would like to hope that she's... improved. Became something bigger and better than the girl in the small cell, back in Mexico City.]
I'm back in school, too. People like Strange would be upset if I played 'hooky' anymore, even with them gone. I will — keep trying. To live like a person, to be someone. I think it is important to the people before me. It does not change what has happened... any of it. But it is making something for later, I think. That is what I've settled for, in my head.
To be better. And to not be what I was made for; I want to... think about things I can be... when I am older.
[She fidgets with the old, raggedy strap of her backpack, considerate. There's no limit of hesitancy to her voice, but even so—]
Is there something... You think changed for you? As a person?
After staying here.
Is there something you would still like to change?
... Maybe we can work on things together.
[She hopes, in the end, that it'll be enough to make her father proud of her.]